I've come to learn that having opinions, insights, and standing for something is as taxing as it is rewarding. Like you, I am inspired by what surrounds me, by history and by the possibilities that open up as a result of my experiences. But, it is not easy. And, I suppose it's not supposed to be.
I too feel challenged by what I should say versus what has already been said, yet also shaped by what should not be vocalized. I've come to learn however, that the relationship between self expression and inner monologue defines one's character. It is what's is said and what is not said that defines impressions and ultimately the perceptions of who we are and for what it is we stand or hope to achieve.
Satisfaction or dissatisfaction with oneself is trumped by our ability to learn and teach together.
My personal and professional struggles are often tied to emotional rigors that spin me through cycles of vision, validation, vindication, vulnerability and vanity. These 5 V's either pull me to learn, participate and teach or push me into a realm of either complacency or uncertainty, both of which result into creative stillness. These 5 V's however coalesce and produce different results based on the measure we apply to our own actions, reactions and inactions.
Impressions are linked to expressions and ultimately they are ours to define.
If you're not provocative in some way, how can you possibly stand out to inspire someone else? This is a time for you to choose what it is you do with the inevitable reactions of encouragement, criticism, or resentment you will receive as you discover, share and grow. Take from each experience and move in a direction where you invest and receive value that inspires you and those around you. This is a time to be your own hero...to both inspire and be inspired.
"The impact of your work is the result of the balance you place on reacting to, learning from, and transcending teachers, critics and supporters."
Change happens to you and because of you. It is what perpetually happens next that defines your character and ultimately your legacy.
This is your time.